Hope You are doing well. Honestly, I don’t know whether You are a Someone or whether You are all the Gods that I believe in like Jesus Christ, Sai Baba, Shiva, Allah, Maa Kali et al. If You are One then this letter is for You, and if You are many then this letter if for all of You. But whatever is the case, this letter is intended for You God.
Dear God, could You please tell me why did You create the word called love? And if You did, then why didn’t You create Love? And if You didn’t create love then why did You create fools like me who believed in that word so much that they destroyed themselves for that one word, love.
If You would have created love then today she wouldn’t have left me like this dear God. Because I loved her a lot, I know that and You know that too. I loved her when she deserved it the least. I gave her all my affection, I took care of her like a baby. I gave her millions of happy memories, I gave her a new life. Yes, I gave her a new life because You wanted me to. And I gave her a relationship so beautiful that people only read about in books. But only if You would have given some love and affection in her heart, then after I gave her all these things she wouldn’t have been able to make me cry so much and leave me forever.
The reason I am writing this letter is not to accuse You of anything, neither am I writing this letter to blame her for destroying my life so mercilessly even after I loved her so much. The reason I am writing this letter to You is because if You are true, which I want to believe that You are, someday You would care to take a look at this and maybe someday just like You she too would chance to look upon this letter. On that day maybe you would bless me and on that day maybe, just maybe, she would realize how much I love her and then she would come back to me again.
Am I asking for too much God? You are being kind to so many people, can’t You bless me once and bring her back in my life? Please forgive all my sins God. Please don’t hurt me so much, please don’t make me cry anymore.
Trust me God I still love her as madly as I always did. And I am still waiting for her to come back. And I would always be there by her side whether she wants me to be or not like I always was. Just make her come back to me once God. I trust You and I trust in the word Love. Please don’t break my trust dear God.
P.S. Just one request dear God, if You can’t make her come back to me then please don’t preach about love anymore, because that would be a lie. And Gods don’t lie.
Friday, October 01, 2010